_ Like I told a friend of mine, I don’t think my filter button is off, I think it’s broken.
I can seem tactless at times and I end up saying what everyone is thinking, but no one has the balls to say it. I walk in and without any pre-thought just say it. Like “Wow, you got fat.” And it doesn’t matter who you are. You could be the president of the free nation, and I have no fear to speak my mind. Which in a way is good, you know I’m not hedging around the bush no matter who you are or how important you think you are :) And you know you’ll always get an honest answer. It may not be sugar coated or what a person wants to hear, and it may not even be correct because it is just an opinion. But people forget that part. I feel no need to edit my thoughts and that’s where I get into trouble. Because some people can’t handle the things I say, and it can and does, back fire with (at least to me) surprising consequences.
Needless to say my friends need thick skin around me. I try to remember to edit what comes out of my mouth for their sake but sometimes things just come out. Or, it sounds ok in my head, but once spoken…not so good.
It might happen because of my short attention span. That if I don’t say it right now, it’ll get lost in the muck of my head and I’ll never get it out. So I just end up saying every inappropriate thing that people cringe to hear.
So I have learned, and 9 times out of 10, I just keep my mouth shut. Makes me appear to be the shy person at the party, but inside there is a humorous monologue that only a few would appreciate. People who know me have probably caught me laughing to myself on more than one occasion.
I think I can take it as good as I get. I hope I can. It’s only fair. Whenever someone says something that is supposed to be hurtful, I will actually take a step back and critique myself with that same tactless view. Sometimes I think they’re right, sometimes not.
And it doesn’t help that my sense of humor is a little wacky. What I find to be absolutely hysterical, many others would not. And I have a talent to turn anything into a sexual innuendo. It’s truly an art. Absolutely anything… Many say it’s childish. I find it very funny and fun. Try it one day, you’ll be laughing the entire day.
But let’s face it, I am not one of those fluffy bunny, innocent as apple pie, walking on egg shells type of writer like many other teen writers appear to be. Or that your mother would approve of. Matter of fact, parents will probably hate me. And religions will hate me. And the government will be watching me… LOL
But it’s alright. They’re just afraid because I threaten something they stand for.
You may hate me, you may like me, you may not care and neither do I.
See, I did it again...
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